It was ugly.
But something so unexpected happened...
love.
grace.
support.
God showered it on me (and He used my amazing husband to do a lot of the work! Michael is so often a faithful and true representation of Christ to me). I've been working hard at uncovering lies, clinging to truth, wrestling with doubt, and practicing gratitude. It's been a sweet time of growth through some storms. Then last week I was finishing up the month long prayer I had been praying on behalf of a friend's adoption. We were asking big things and God decided in His perfect sovereignty to answer in a different way. rough. tough. but ultimately we know God is always good and His ways are better...higher. I thought of my own circumstances, and realized that I needed a kick in the proverbial pants, or possibly even a real one! It's time for me to count the cost of really following Christ. It's promised in scripture that we will suffer. I've been lulled in my life into comfort, ease, and distraction at times from my mission to bring God's kingdom. I was reading in a devotional a week or so ago and a thought has been stuck in my mind....there's so much to pray for! There's a lot at stake here. It matters how I think and live. I need to do it all for God's glory.
Rich Stearns is retiring from serving as the director of World Vision this year, and he writes in his new book, "Unfinished", "[Jesus' call] was not a call to give up on the world, holding our 'tickets to heaven' firmly in our hands and retreating into our churches. It was a call to go INTO the world to reclaim, reform, and restore it for Christ."
